The day was warm, for winter anyway. We lay between the sheets. The soft of the cotton rubbing against my face. I turn on my side and a light breeze pulls through the cavity. The air is colder than I thought. I lie content, staring at a blank wall, tracing the cracks, hoping to find a new imperfection. Something moves slowly and I feel her arm wrap around me.
Suddenly my happiness fades. I turn around to look at her. I want to inhale every moment and save it, forever. this moment, right here. I look at her and smile, helplessly fighting my tears. she strokes my neck.
“Be happy,” she says. “Forever!”
Her laughter fills the air. Music rings in my ears. I close my eyes, letting water flow. ‘Forever.’ Such a long time, is it not. How can I possibly hold on?
The sun filters into the room, turning her skin to gold. Her brown eyes filled with hope, happiness. ‘Forever.’
Those words, like chimes that never end. The sun is rising over mountain tops. I’ve walked these trails for a year now and every moments I find some new wonder. In the pauses between time, the gaps that fill space, beneath it all we lie. The ground is cold, the water refreshing. The air is on fire and I see you in flames that towers above me. i hear your voice, my never ending song.
Forever, forever, forever, forever and ever. ‘Forever.’
Even when it ended, your smile still said forever. Your eyes still filled with hope. Now I live apart, never able to share that smile. strange, is it not, how short a time it really is. I love the sky. I love the sun. And the water, the dust and the stars so very far. I love them forever. I love them for you can no longer love them yourself.